They say that grief comes in waves, and so despite my positive thinking yesterday I still seem to be suffering from the wonderful stages of depression and anger.  which left me taking everything anyone said really hard and then having a go at them - lovely.

So I decided to take some time off today to visit Chelsea Physic Garden which I’ve heard a lot about.  It really wasn’t all that, but it did help me, and I’ve come home feeling stronger, more directed and having made some decisions about my life and business... part of which was helped by two very lovely ladies joining me at my table for lunch.

I’ve decided to take more time away from the internet.  Working on a computer means that it’s so easy to check my emails, Facebook, and I partly think I should be doing this as I am trying to build a great website - but I think there is also a time to switch off - as Blackberry users are always being told.  And so give myself more time at the computer actually working and not clicking onto something else.

I’ve decided to cut myself more slack financially and stop expecting to make a profit or even a living from this for at least 18 months - if I have to diversify - no problem.

I’ve decided to stop listening to the negative people; and that includes my own self.

I’ve decided to go for it - to not be afraid to put myself out there where I really want to be (it’s easy to put yourself where you don’t really want to be.)

I’ve been thinking about working my arse off, or working more cleverly, but then it hit me, what I really want to do is work my heart off - if you know what I mean?

Love Pearl